I've always read references online saying how their loved ones had changed or what so ever and honestly i've never quite understood what they were talking about cause I felt like I've never had a significant example. But now, I'm starting to understand. It's that feeling when you felt like you used to know a certain someone and snap...they suddenly became so foreign. I mean you may still hang out or talk to the person but it's no longer like before. Its really sad when he becomes someone you used to know.

Well wells. went for a gathering this afternoon and saw so many little kids running around...I know I'm still a kid and all but I really envy them. Yes prolly I'll have worries in the future but right now it feels like the peak of worries. Idk I'm like 18 and writing like I have major life decisions to make lolol. But seriously at this stage it seems really crucial cause one wrong step and you screwed up your whole future. You flunk this and you lose your admission to recognized universities and your degree wouldn't get you a good job. So I guess my worries aren't for nothing. And everyone would constantly tell you that you're smart and you'll definitely do well but you know better...and something tells me it wouldn't be pleasant. I wished I would spend my time working hard instead of reminiscing and worrying...lol?

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