Well, life aint going that smoothly. But who said life was easy...Results are back, i drop a grade for my H2s and went up a grade for my H1s. But still, aint pretty if you knew what grade i started out with. Anyways, things in school are always dramatic...but things at home aint sunny too. Okay pardon me with me obsessive use of arent aint havent didnt what so ever...im too lazy to add the apostrophes. Well, i know parents are busy people with the stinking high cost of living in singapore, its hard to enjoy luxury thingy with a single income. But then, im 18 not 28...at some point in time, i need my family, which now seems a little non-existing. Been months since the family's had a meal together with everyone present, but it happens almost every other day for other families. Its not that my parents are constantly working...they arent. But with me and my brother now having schedules of our own, its a little hard for us too. its not schedules like friend time or what so ever yea!
Anyways, it kinda sucks having half the family only on half a weekend...and it kills me seeing them giving in to us cause they want to make us happy...i feel spoiled so im really trying to change this concept.
Getting a little off track...but wells, bottom line is i love my family even though i...well i cant say i dont need them cause i do...its just i find myself constantly struggling on my own.
Caught the dark knight today and it was awesome. Joseph Gordon Levitt said in the movie, that Christian Bale is just putting on a mask to the whole world...and not the batman mask but the smiles. It hit me...was i doing the same? Acting all smiley to the world and coming home with a different face...oh wait correction...coming home all smiley to my family and going to my room behind closed doors with a different face.
Nah im not like that all the time...but theres a good 60% that i do...
I believe that i should touch on the poly vs jc concept a little since its been raised like forever.
Im from a JC and never been to a poly so i do not know better...but hear me out.
I totally believe that poly kids are going through though curriculum like us jc kids. And yes i cant deny the fact that most of us move on to universities and not the workforce. And i disagree with the government's point of having poly graduates step into the workforce directly. And i do not think that we jc kids are smarter than poly kids...
Almost everyone can have a choice between JC or Poly at the Olevel period. So most poly kids can enter jc too. I dont think that they are learning things easier than us as well. But the road to university is tough. I know that poly kids have to maintain amazing GPA throughout the 3years or its bye bye local uni. And, we are dealing with failures every single day. Although they dont count in the end, they are your worse enemy in your journey till the end. Most Jc kids that are failing studied hard. Okay maybe you aced your Alevels in the end, good for you now scramble to Uni...but what if you didnt? $500 of exam fees gone, spot in local uni gone, tears and sweat gone. Hahaha i believe most average Jc kids have been through the despair and broke down once or twice at least... I know polytechnics aint easy cause i think i cant maintain a good GPA...but i wished there could be mutual understandings.
We dont think we are smarter...and i hope poly students dont blame us for filling in uni seats. We both tried and fought hard for it. whoever that makes it wins the game although there are differences in the pathways that we took to get there. So i really hope for mutual respect and understanding.